geekery, drawing and then some
I spent the past ten days without my laptop, very interesting. I had my trusty EEE pc and my phone to fall back on, however, mostly just for the basics. My workflow on my macbook did not fit the EEE (for one, I really missed TextExpander)
I mostly rested, having an RA-flare, and did some decluttering (which I intend to continue). I also worked out a small plan to start a new sleeping-schedule. After trying for months to fit back in the ‘normal world’ I decided to revisit my afternoon naps. Not sure if I feel better, but I like the idea of getting up early, do stuff, then go to have a three or four hour nap in the afternoon and then do things in the evening as well. None of that power-nap stuff, I need solid hours. This way, I hope to spread my energy more evenly and to still participate in the ‘normal world’.
I tried it out today, and though I feel sleepy and tired and slightly confused, I did very much enjoy my afternoon nap. I also made a drawing this morning, during my first wake. Always good :)
Annoyingly, my laptop broke. I’ve narrowed it down to a broken video-chip and that might still fall under warranty (an extended one, due to known factory defect). Originally I planned to take it to the Apple Store this weekend, but Apple Stores during the weekend usually get a bit crowded. Current plan means going in as soon as I feel up to it (tomorrow Maybe) and see if they can fix it.
For now, this means using my trusty little EEE for irc and (barely) browsing, and my phone a little. It feels very basic and simple.
We made a few movies of Nano running around in the snow. She seems to enjoy sticking her nose in it a lot. You can see how it sticks to her paws, turning them in cotton-ball-paws. We can only get it out by putting her in the shower, which she doesn’t particularly like.
Nano enjoys the snow very much and randomly barks at it when she sees it falling. She loves rolling around in it, for some reason, sticking her nose in it and getting covered with snow. It sticks to her fur a lot, she needed a shower to get it all out. She looked like one of those cotton-ball-sheep :)
Today I ran some errands. I got prints from my lab-work and then headed to the pharmacy to pick up my medication. My MTX went up in dosage so I had to get new prepared syringes. I left my prescription there on Saturday and they told me then to pick it up on Tuesday / Wednesday. So I went today. Unfortunately, when I got there and after waiting for a bit, they told me they wouldn’t give me more because I picked up my prescription two weeks ago already. I explained that I got a new prescription for a higher dosage right after I picked the other one up. The girl at first thought the prescription said 15mg (old dose) but upon closer look, it did indeed say 20mg. The note, made by the person accepting my prescription Saturday, said 15mg however — someone screwed up. She did promise me to order it right away and to come back tomorrow. A bit annoying.
I then went to the supermarket around the corner to buy some fruit (tangerines and bananas) and some crackers. I happily listened to my music, feeling slightly annoyed by the pharmacy thing but also looking forward to some nice tangerines. When I got outside and checked my iPhone for the time, the screen had gone nuts. All the while my music played, but the screen won’t display anything sensible.
I suspect tangerine-envy.
Tomorrow I’ll go back to the store to have it repaired. I miss it already.
Procrastinating from my Nanowrimo-novel (3471 words) I found Hugh Macleod’s article ‘ don’t worry about being an artist. just worry about getting the work made. ’.
It reminded me of how I know some people that graduate in something or the other, and then say ‘Oh, now I am a real <insert random profession>’. When then asked what they really do then, they usually don’t have an answer to that. But at least they can say ‘I’m a <insert random profession> now!.
Apart from these, a lot of people also seem to think that creativity (in any shape and form) requires talent. They don’t really know what this talent actually means, but clearly some people have it and some don’t. You get born with it, or maybe some fairy comes by at night and sprinkles it on you.
I don’t believe in talent (or that evil cousin called ‘luck’). I believe in (hard) work. I believe in doing. I believe that when you have an interest in a subject you need to dig in and put in the hours and hours of work to get ‘good’ or ‘great’ at it. Getting good / great requires work more than this vague talent. Sure, some people seem to do it more easily, however, most of these creative things take practice. And practice means work. It means failing and loving your failure because of the unexpected result. It means hating your failure and deciding you want to do the opposite. It means challenging yourself. It means stretching out to the borders of your sanity to see if you can, and then crossing it. It means stretching to the edges of your ability and finding you can go further than you thought you could go.
So I make this bold statement that you cannot be unless you do. You can call yourself a writer, an artist, a whatnot. But if you don’t actually do it, then you just stuck a label on yourself. Ask yourself what you would like more.
This morning I got up and walked into the livingroom, finding Nano (looking smug) on the sofa with an empty chocolate-bar wrapper between her paws. I thought I had stored the bar away, ‘cause I always do that. Not last night, unfortunately, so when I saw her looking at me and the leftovers of the wrapper, I freaked out a little. A call to the vet calmed me down (kudos to the other person on the line), as we calculated how much she had and what type. She had about half of the ‘minimal toxic (not lethal)’ dose, the vet said.
The vet told me to keep an eye on Nano, feed her some extra to dilute the chocolate somewhat and check to see if Nano drank enough. She drank a lot today, and spent some time on the sofa making small whining noises (I suspect a tummy ache) and seems otherwise fine.
This of course happens right after boyfriend suggested poisoning the dog in my Nanowrimo-novel.
November lurks around the corner, so I had to join Nanowrimo again. I decided to try a different approach this year and have slowly outlined my planned novel. Initially I wanted to go for horror, with brutal murders and such (I blame this on watching the entire ‘Friday the 13th‘ series, as well as ‘Nightmare on Elmstreet‘, and ending it with ‘Freddy vs Jason‘), but my story seems to have converted more into a regular thriller with no supernatural murderer.
And it’ll have a dog.
My mom commented recently about how many digital cameras I have. I have my trusty Canon Powershot A620, an older Canon Ixus 400 and a Minolta Dimage 5, plus ofcourse the Sony Ericsson K810i phone and my iPhone. She didn’t notice The Other Cameras, all analogue. I have two Lomo LCA’s (one old, it says ‘USSR’ and a newer one) with a macro, tunnelvision and fisheye lens and a colour-flash, a transparent actionsampler, a pop9, an orange supersampler, a Polaroid 600 and a Polaroid i-zone. I May still have forgotten some (my Kodak Brownie comes to mind). One might say I have too many cameras, and I cannot disagree there.
I loved and love making photos, of ordinary stuff, of strange things, of my dog. I’ll make functional photos (of my garden) but I have a thing for the randomness of just shooting (the Lomo-philosophy, basically). Buying film and having it developed and cross-processed and all costs a lot of money (not to mention the nasty chemicals). As my main camera I’ve used a digital one since around 2002 (had one before, but didn’t mainly use it), which has that ‘instant’ effect that I love. I’ve also absolutely loved my phone’s camera, despite its lack in quality, or perhaps because of that. On my trip through Europe, years ago, I snapped a bunch of photos with my phone-camera and send them as a collage on a postcard.
Yesterday I browsed around and looked for a few iPhone-apps that would satisfy my ‘funky’ need. I had already downloaded and used QuadCamera which reminded me of my old actionsampler (and the supersampler). I also found CameraBag to add some effects to photos (some vignetting, adjustment in colour etc) as well as CameraKit. And ofcourse several Polaraid Apps of which I currently like ShakeItPhoto the most. The part of me that enjoyed my analogue cameras so much has awoken and bounces up and down, left and right, off the walls. I wonder how much sleep I’ll get tonight…
I have no idea when my love for hats started, somewhere before my teen-years for sure. I never did really wear them, my head was usually too round to fit them properly. I wore baseball caps, and that was about it. For a very long time I wanted a black top-hat, almost like a magician’s but a bit shorter. Too long seemed a bit impractical. For years I’d browse hat-stores every once in a while, and when I got internet I googled them. Up until this week I never found (perhaps I lacked the google-foo) the hat that I wanted. Either they were too high, or too expensive. I wouldn’t dare to go out on the street with an expensive hat, so it had to cost a fair amount, not a ridiculous amount.
And this week, I found it. The perfect hat. With a feather. It arrived today and it is awesome. So very awesome. I never want to take it of again.